I feel like a lot of things are up in the air - not just because of the job situation but definitely not helped by the job sitch. So many feelings! I feel like I should be doing more planning for my wedding and that it's not really planned at all (probably because it's not). We're approaching the 1 year countdown and I'm itching to get into planning. I do like to plan things and make lists of things to do, so I'm looking forward to the details. Also up in the air are my living situations in the future. I can't live with my parents forever, especially with the impending marriage! But I can't think about where I'll be living until I have a job. Blerg.
I'm heading up to my alma mater (now I kinda like saying that!) on Sunday to spend Monday - Friday playing in the band for the conducting symposium they hold each summer. It's great to learn about conducting through observation. Conducting is something that a music educator can always - and should always - work on for not only personal growth but for the betterment of the students. Fringe benefits of the symposium include being able to spend time with some of my bestest friends from the school of music! It's going to be bittersweet on the last day of symposium because I will be signing out, handing in my keys, and leaving my apartment for the last time. In fact, I'll be the last one of my roomies to close the door on our home for the last 2 years. As silly as it sounds, I feel like it's really the end once I can't say that 190-01 is my apartment anymore. My roommate since freshmen year is still there so I'll be with her until Thursday when she leaves for good. I know as of right now that I'll see my roomies in about a year at my wedding, but after that, I don't know when I'll see them again. It's hard and I get all sad when I think about it (read as: I'm crying just thinking about it). I feel like I'll be reliving the sadness I felt saying good bye to my roomies on graduation day and the day after except this time it'll just be me crying over a building. But let's be honest, that apartment was more than a building for the last 2 years. I think one thing that was holding me together after graduation was knowing that I'd be back the last week in June. Even though I know 4 of my 5 roomies are in Colorado, Connecticut, North Dakota, and California (not in our apartment) I've been feeling like going back would make me with them. Okay I'm a kook and holding on to the past. I don't know. Just crazy feelings. But rest assured roomies, I'll be sure to leave our apartment with a smile and hope that the people who next inhabit it will be kind to it.
In other world news, I've been feeling really good about my playing lately! I'm playing in an orchestra for a summer concert that is on Saturday. We've rehearsed the last two Wednesdays and it's been lots of fun. I'm playing second to a lady who is getting her DMA in flute performance and it's a joy because we match so well! Our tones blend well and she plays in tune so it's very easy to sit next to her. The lady playing piccolo is getting her masters and she's great too. I'm glad I can carry my weight in the section and that they were impressed with my playing. Woo!
Looking forward to:
- teaching my little flute student tomorrow for the first time in a while
- watching movies with my girls tonight and campfire tomorrow night (pending weather)
- seeing Matt tomorrow
- gig on Saturday
- going to campus on Sunday
- a phone call
Good things definitely come to those who wait, especially when "those" are as competent as you are! I totally know the antsy feeling rom not getting a jump on lists...argh! Hahaha
ReplyDeleteSo will you be living with Matt this year? I will be living at home all year, as the median home price is 600k here...yikes! Have fun at symposium and with your super fun list (and hopefully your campfire!)...it is a really tough transition, but we will see each other again soon (I'm keeping my July 2013 OPEN!!) if it helps, since I started work (even though it is only summer school), I've been totally immersed and in a way, relaxed. I spend more time refining/doing my new personal daily routine, including prep, than I do thinking about Ithaca. Once the job comes, and it will, things will move along quickly. :)